the times are changing

as the week rolls to an end theres a lot to think on.. a lot to just soak in..

i turned 21! yes, im legal... but more so the drama that came with it was ridiculous.. it makes you want to truly know the people that you surround yourself with. i think now that you really dont have to like or respect your family especially when they turn there back and talk about you... there should be nothing in this world that comes between you and your family but when they drive the nail what are you to do. in the grand picture of life we are supposed to just forgive like Jesus did. Turn the other cheek like when Judas kissed Jesus... i dont think i am that powerful or prayerful of a person to just forgive when the going gets tough. i offer the hard stuff up to GOD to get the through and he never fails, but whole heartedly i can't just accept the hurt and move on... WWJD? just go with it, move on, FORGIVE...

i cant seem to just be like Jesus and FORGIVE, i need the time to wait out the thoughts and mindfully contemplate the hurt. i know what the answer to my "what should i do prayers are?", but more so i want to know if Jesus was here walking what would He REALLY do... every human on this earth has the power to forgive right away but there is no way that every human does it that way. its hard to see around the hurt even still, but i know in the bottom of my heart that i will forgive, just with a less open, altered relationship...

lets see... altered relationships... that called for some awkward moments at Steph's grad! yep, steph graduated on friday from LSU and it was such an exciting, proud, celebratory moment of not just the parents but every one of us. i was proud to say that my sister graduated and was FINALLY an alum... my time is to come shortly and she honestly said the other day that she cant wait for me to cross the stage and for US to experience the new phase of life together. it was nice to see that she wants me to actually be an active part of her new life with ryan (and eventually babies!!) i was happy to see that she wasnt planning on just going on with life without me as a part of it...

being a part of my siblings lives is important to me because there are no other people in this world that love me the way they do. the fights and frustrations turned into great friendships... our shared joys and sorrows made us an unbreakable force formally know as "the gang"! our lives are all moving in different directions, one to Dallas, one to NOLA, one to Virginia.. and here i am in the good ole Baton Rouge pedaling along to get away from here... i want to go far but not too far... i want to have that "gang" to fall back on and have around for holidays...

moving on is part of life and there is nothing we can do about it, but the gang will stay together no matter what and where and how hard it will be... we are that group that was formed by 2 great people and we owe it all to them!

peace for now....

casey