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as i have a few moments in my day to just sit and take in the beauty of my college campus, i make my way to the greek amphitheater to take in the smells and the sights of my campus i adore so much... this semester is coming to a close and i have to say that some of my best moments here in college have come from these past few months..

lets talk about the change.. the semester started with steph engaged to ryan getting married in a year and soon turned into a race against the clock to get it all done by this june... SG elections took up most of my time, but brought me new friends that help me to grow in so many ways i don't really understand it yet...

my junior year is wrapping up and i have grown into a more mature self confidence young woman of GOD... my junior year as a whole, both this spring and the past fall have brought great change to my life. the most noticeable is the weigh loss and confidence gain, but more so i have made new friends that see the good that i do and appreciate me for all that i am.

i have these moments were i stop and ask GOD why He planned it out this way. why he waited so long to bring old friends back into my life to cheer me on and help me out. i wonder if we would have always remanded friends if we would still be learning this much from each other? i wonder why its taken me this long in my college career to want GOD as a part of my and get that relationship i used to have back.

its been a lot of change, old friends are gone but replaced by new friends, lasting friendships still holding strong... new classes and new faces, a blog that inspires me to just say what i feel and not keep it all in, a young beautiful spirit that reminds me to take a breath and just have fun...

there have been some negatives too, loosing friends because of my change, loosing sight of my faith because i got so caught up in the why and how and the everyday, but for all the negatives the positives trump ten fold.... there are no regrets except for the few times i could be giving more of myself than i was, but we all live and learn and do better next time...

peace,

casey

good friends? nope, GREAT friends!

spring break is over and its a quick jolt back into reality with a book to read for a test and a research paper due in just a few days... it will all get done i know, but im still in spring break mode so its gonna be an interesting week..

the break was nice, besides the actual surgery part its been nice to see who really cares and makes an effort to check in on you. its really cool to see the people come out of the wood work to comfort you and just talk (or type) to you when you lonely bored and miserable.

i have to say the truth comes out when something serious goes on.. you know whos got your back and who doesnt...you know which friends are true and which are fake.. its hard to realize sometimes, but for me i am pleased to say that most of my "friends" have my back. its nice to know the real ones from the fake ones... honestly: when a friend checks in on you when they are out on the beach, at home for the first time in months, serving others miles and miles away or simply too busy to handle life you know they really care...

its been nice to see all the caring loving spirit around me and im interested to see how far it goes from here.. i know the break gave most of us time to just sit back and have conversations about life, about GOD, about whatever might be on our minds, but are your true friends really just the ones that sweep in at a time of need or do they stay around for the ordinary stuff... if they can pull through when you need them, but not come around when the MTWTFSS routines are in play is it really a good friend?

peace,

casey

who you foolin'?

its april 1st and the only thoughts on most of my friends' minds is what jokes to play and what pranks to pull, but for me im just trying to decide what i want to do with the month of april.

its a fresh start, a new beginning, a chance to create some change. do i study more? go to all my classes? visit different churches? talk to new people? get involved in an org? what to do with the next 30 days....

im making changes in life for the better these days, so i want to make april count. ive been listening to what i call "jesus jams" (AKA christian music) and its making me realize that i can't do this life thing all on my own. i need to just give GOD a chance and go with it.

the hard part isn't letting go, the hard part is knowing when to let go. ive lived a life of hurt, pain, and sorrow but i try to make it all positive in the end. if i can't see the good in the bad, i wont get anywhere an i wouldnt have any friends. i understand that GOD is a constant that is good to have in life, and i want so badly to have him here, but i dont really know where to start.

with easter around the corner, i planned to be taking a trip to serve for my spring break but medical reasonings have kept me from being able to go. i want this to be the jump start to my "new" phase in life, so now i have to find a way to kick off this new life for GOD while im home on the couch with ice packs and stitches...

its gonna be a struggle, so maybe this is supposed to be the lesson?

peace,

casey