rockin tha W

so elections are over (as of tuesday) and the disappointment of the loss (as of wednesday) is almost gone. its only been a day since we got results, but its a quick rebound when you have to get back out there to support the other one you want to win.

the past few weeks have been an unbelievable experience and i am proud of all my old friends, new friends, and new old friends, that came out to support and work so hard for our ticket. the journey really was the reward in my book. really if it wasnt for all the people that worked so hard, campaigning would have been boring, and the journey wouldnt have been worth it.

we went the distance to make ourselves known and do our best. we didnt go out without a fight and a strong finish. there were our obstacles along the way, but as a group we faced them and overcame them. within the last few days, we got this really cool swag to wear and campaign in. we wore those Ws with pride and even walked campus with them. o how great it was before the results came out!

just a word of thanks for everyone that supported us, wore blue, donned a sticker, campaigned, and voted! we (as a ticket) appreciate all the effort... it just didnt happen to come out the way we wanted. we have picked up and moved on and are looking forward to bigger and better things.

peace,

casey

when the world is falling

the great words of a song that has gotten me through a lot these days is "Safe" by Phil Wickham. at this point in my life im gonna honestly say that i am not as close to god as i wish i was or as i have been and i feel the hardships that i have been dealing with are even harder because i dont have that solid ground. my heart aches for that relationship back, but its harder than ever now to get that focus back in life. i have a new old friend these days that has a strong foundational faith and i envy that. i commented about it but didnt elaborate on it because i dont know exactly how to put it that i am jealous of her relationship with god. i wish i had that and i am open to suggestions about how to get my relationship with god back. i feel like this friend has a purpose for coming into my life at this point in time, but i dont really know what it was but i think it has something to do with getting me grounded again.

my world is crashing around me and life is hard these days. although i have the friends for support i feel like i could make my life easier if i could let go and let god, but right now in life i have a void up that i need to handle. addressing this issue isnt going to be easy to resolve, but i can't handle life the way it is so the foundation is were i think i need to start. when everything in life is falling apart i have the friends to fill the missing parts, but i need the internal relationship to be truly fulfilled and happy.

now, ill leave you with these lyrics that are starting my "new" relationship with god:

To the one whose dreams are falling all apart
And all you’re left with is a tired and broken heart
I can tell by your eyes you think you’re on your own
But you’re not alone

Have you heard of the One who can calm the raging sea
Give sight to the blind, pull the lame up to their feet
With a love so strong and never let you go
No you’re not alone

You will be safe in His arms, you will be safe in His arms
‘Cause the hands that hold the world are holding your heart
This is the promise He made, He will be with you always
When everything is falling apart you will be safe in His arms

Did you know that the voice that brings the dead to life
Is the very same voice that calls you now to rise
So hear Him now He’s calling you home
You will never be alone

These are the hands that built the mountains
The hands that calm the sea
These are the arms that hold the heavens
They are holding you and me
These are the hands that healed the leper
Pulled the lame up to their feet
These are the arms that were nailed to a cross
To break our chains and set us free

Safe in His arms, safe in His arms
Safe in His arms
When everything is falling apart
You will be safe in His arms

A special thanks to mw for giving me this song. i need these words at this point in my life.

banded for the better

as you can see by the title of this post im feeling pretty good with the decision i made to get my lapband.

its been 160 days since my surgery and each day has brought new challenges and thoughts... at the beginning i thought this was the worst choice i had ever made. i couldn't walk or stand for long stretches or even really sit up for that matter but i new i was doing this for a better life.

these past couple weeks have really made me see how well i have progressed and how happy i am with my new lease on life. at minus 50ish lbs i can run a mile, walk campus, and smile brighter! my life is different now. people complement me and that boosts my confidence even more.

my lapband has helped me to realize that food doesn't have to rule your life. that you dont need a whole pint of chocolate ice cream or pack of oreos when you're sad, grab a hershey's kiss or fun size m&ms and just feed the minor craving. its the simple things i have learned that have made this whole process easier.

the hardest part about the whole thing has really been accepting the change and getting over the fact that none of my clothes or shoes fit. its been an interesting journey... with lots of support and lots of obstacles, but no matter what i have the "home team" that helps me through.